Keep on trying...

Ugh! I fell off the blog wagon. I have yet to get on the wagon toward my weight loss goals. I just have not been feeling good this fall and it makes it hard for me to keep up with everything, let alone start something new like an exercise program. I hate to come on here and make excuses but the sad fact of the matter is I have not done any work toward my goal of losing weight/getting healthier other than just thinking about things. That really is all I have had time and energy to do.

Things I have been thinking about or my main problems:

Eating – I eat to stay awake. I have been so tired lately that I am always eating. If I don’t eat I fall asleep. That is so frustrating because I don’t want to eat constantly. Plus I don’t go for healthy snacks, I go for junk food. I should trade the junk for carrot sticks or something. I wonder if healthy snacks would keep me awake and make me feel satisfied? Something I have never tried. I have just thought of this - The eating for energy is not working as well as it used to either. I used to be able to eat something, drink some tea, and feel better for a couple of hours at least. Now, as soon as I stop eating I am sleepy.

Lack of energy – I have no idea how to bring my energy level up. I am in class or working an internship about 8 hours Monday through Thursday – by the time I get home I am so tired I crash. I have yet to try my counselor’s advice and take a walk when I get home to get some energy. I am just too tired, too anxious about not feeling well all the time, and too stressed about all the stuff I still have to do that I get crabby and say ‘screw it’ (in harsher terms actually) and just veg out. Most times I end up falling asleep when I try to relax and get a grip on things. It is like I have to keep moving and keep eating but I am just not up for it. Week-ends I work, and try to catch up on everything but there is only so much time in the day, and so much you can fit in.

Exercise – does exercise really give you more energy? This has never worked for me but I don’t stick to an exercise plan long enough, maybe. How can you exercise when you feel like crap to begin with? People talk about getting a boost of energy but this has never happened to me. I am just tired, tired, tired. And doubtful.

So I am trying to get back on track this week-end. I am trying to overcome all these problems, excuses, doubts. Used to be I could just will-power through times when I felt this bad but it has been getting harder to do this fall. I feel pretty weak but I am going to keep on trying.

Because I need motivation and something funny: