Saturday, December 4, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
Same ole same ole...
I did not go work out today. I had plans to go to the gym and also go swimming but those fell through. The only time I worked out this week was Monday - that sucks.
I have been so emotional lately and it just wears on me. In addition to all the stress I wrote about in my Wednesday blog, I found out this morning (my husband received a call from his ex-wife) that my stepson has been staying out late on school nights (he didn't get home until after 2am last night) and he has also been smoking - not just cigarettes. This is normal teenage stuff but this really did surprise my husband and I because my stepson has always been responsible. We thought we could trust him and have given him lots of freedom because of this. Apparently we were wrong.
So this morning I was about to have a breakdown - I was frustrated, sad and angry. I didn't know what to do about it. I wanted to throw my phone against the wall then I just wanted to sleep but I had appointments then I had to pick up my husband and stepson so we could all talk. I didn't have time for schoolwork though I can't freakin' concentrate on it enough to get anything done anyway. I certainly didn't feel like working out although it might have helped. Of course thoughts about all the other things I need to do creep into my workouts. The only thing good about this morning was I forgot to eat. I was so wrapped up in the crisis and also all the stuff I had to do I just didn't eat. Well maybe that is not so good after all because I chowed down at dinner.
What do I do to get back on track? The only thing I can think to do is to push all this emotional BS aside for now, concentrate on my school work this week-end so I can get back on track with my exercising on Monday. I may try to work in some exercise before then but we will see how it goes. Lately I just feel like I can't win.
I have been so emotional lately and it just wears on me. In addition to all the stress I wrote about in my Wednesday blog, I found out this morning (my husband received a call from his ex-wife) that my stepson has been staying out late on school nights (he didn't get home until after 2am last night) and he has also been smoking - not just cigarettes. This is normal teenage stuff but this really did surprise my husband and I because my stepson has always been responsible. We thought we could trust him and have given him lots of freedom because of this. Apparently we were wrong.
So this morning I was about to have a breakdown - I was frustrated, sad and angry. I didn't know what to do about it. I wanted to throw my phone against the wall then I just wanted to sleep but I had appointments then I had to pick up my husband and stepson so we could all talk. I didn't have time for schoolwork though I can't freakin' concentrate on it enough to get anything done anyway. I certainly didn't feel like working out although it might have helped. Of course thoughts about all the other things I need to do creep into my workouts. The only thing good about this morning was I forgot to eat. I was so wrapped up in the crisis and also all the stuff I had to do I just didn't eat. Well maybe that is not so good after all because I chowed down at dinner.
What do I do to get back on track? The only thing I can think to do is to push all this emotional BS aside for now, concentrate on my school work this week-end so I can get back on track with my exercising on Monday. I may try to work in some exercise before then but we will see how it goes. Lately I just feel like I can't win.
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Two Great Slideshows
I love looking at these before and after slideshows of people's weight loss:
http://fitbie.msn.com/slideshow/amazing-weight-loss-success
This next slideshow is cool - it is about bizarre side effects of working out:
http://fitbie.msn.com/fitness-tips/tips/10-bizarre-side-effects-exercise/tip/0
I have experienced some of them but not the 'coregasm' unfortunately, haha. Last night I was wondering if exercise makes you poop more but it didn't make the list.
http://fitbie.msn.com/slideshow/amazing-weight-loss-success
This next slideshow is cool - it is about bizarre side effects of working out:
http://fitbie.msn.com/fitness-tips/tips/10-bizarre-side-effects-exercise/tip/0
I have experienced some of them but not the 'coregasm' unfortunately, haha. Last night I was wondering if exercise makes you poop more but it didn't make the list.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Meltdown
I have been having meltdowns lately. It is another week of stress and anxiety and I am letting it get in the way of my workouts. I tried to workout on Monday - well I did workout on the weight machines for about a half and hour but I just wanted to get out of there. I kept thinking about all I had to do for my classes and another problem (husband being taken back to court by his ex-wife over some stupid BS) I am having. Too much on my mind and all I want to do is just BE.
Monday, as far as exercising goes, ended up being OK because I went back to the gym with some friends later in the day and I did about twenty plus minutes on the treadmill. I just ate way too much on Monday. It feels like I can't win. I have noticed the more I exercise the more I want to eat. What's up with that? Maybe I shouldn't worry about it too much because I have been losing weight, although not as fast as I would like.
Today I didn't go to the gym because my workout buddy wasn't going. I am perfectly able to go by myself, I just blew it off. I had hopes of getting some homework done but of course I blew that off too. The more stressed and anxious I become the less I want to do. I just want to say forget about it and stay at home and sleep. I hide! That is not good.
I need to overcome this I just don't know what to do. My energy level is so low that I can't just power through all this negativity. I need some damn energy so I can power through all my the papers I have to write. Where is all this energy you are supposed to have from working out? I never feel it - even when I went to the gym three times a week. I sometimes get a short burst of energy but nothing major.
I am banging my head against the wall with this. Why do I let stuff get to me? Why do I let stuff get in the way of doing something that is good for me?
Monday, as far as exercising goes, ended up being OK because I went back to the gym with some friends later in the day and I did about twenty plus minutes on the treadmill. I just ate way too much on Monday. It feels like I can't win. I have noticed the more I exercise the more I want to eat. What's up with that? Maybe I shouldn't worry about it too much because I have been losing weight, although not as fast as I would like.
Today I didn't go to the gym because my workout buddy wasn't going. I am perfectly able to go by myself, I just blew it off. I had hopes of getting some homework done but of course I blew that off too. The more stressed and anxious I become the less I want to do. I just want to say forget about it and stay at home and sleep. I hide! That is not good.
I need to overcome this I just don't know what to do. My energy level is so low that I can't just power through all this negativity. I need some damn energy so I can power through all my the papers I have to write. Where is all this energy you are supposed to have from working out? I never feel it - even when I went to the gym three times a week. I sometimes get a short burst of energy but nothing major.
I am banging my head against the wall with this. Why do I let stuff get to me? Why do I let stuff get in the way of doing something that is good for me?
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