I did not go work out today. I had plans to go to the gym and also go swimming but those fell through. The only time I worked out this week was Monday - that sucks.
I have been so emotional lately and it just wears on me. In addition to all the stress I wrote about in my Wednesday blog, I found out this morning (my husband received a call from his ex-wife) that my stepson has been staying out late on school nights (he didn't get home until after 2am last night) and he has also been smoking - not just cigarettes. This is normal teenage stuff but this really did surprise my husband and I because my stepson has always been responsible. We thought we could trust him and have given him lots of freedom because of this. Apparently we were wrong.
So this morning I was about to have a breakdown - I was frustrated, sad and angry. I didn't know what to do about it. I wanted to throw my phone against the wall then I just wanted to sleep but I had appointments then I had to pick up my husband and stepson so we could all talk. I didn't have time for schoolwork though I can't freakin' concentrate on it enough to get anything done anyway. I certainly didn't feel like working out although it might have helped. Of course thoughts about all the other things I need to do creep into my workouts. The only thing good about this morning was I forgot to eat. I was so wrapped up in the crisis and also all the stuff I had to do I just didn't eat. Well maybe that is not so good after all because I chowed down at dinner.
What do I do to get back on track? The only thing I can think to do is to push all this emotional BS aside for now, concentrate on my school work this week-end so I can get back on track with my exercising on Monday. I may try to work in some exercise before then but we will see how it goes. Lately I just feel like I can't win.
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