I am stressed out over homework - too much to do. I am slowly getting caught up but of course new assignments come along. Then this morning there was some drama with my husband's ex-wife over their son. She is going to file all sorts of complaints over a stupid situation that she is totally blowing out of proportion just to try to make my husband miserable. That is the worst part about it because it is really going to hurt my stepson and not my husband. Her complaints will go nowhere.
It just sucks that I let this stuff get in the way of my workout. Really, this is a good day to take up boxing. I could really beat the shit out of someone right now or write my ass off - one of the two. I have to do better I will do better. I am at the buffet on campus now. That's not good, although I have not overeaten. I ate a bunch of junk food this week-end though. I still have to get serious about getting my eating under control and making an effort to eat better - more fruits and vegetable and less sugars/carbs. It is tough when there is so many stressful things going on.
I did weigh myself when I was at the gym today - I may have lost a pound or two. I think I have probably lost about 5-7 pounds since I started this blog. It is hard to say though because I didn't weight myself when I started. Perhaps I will get on the wii and see how much I have lost since the last time I was on there. I am seriously considering posting my weight. What's the big deal - it is apparent that I am obese. Ha, really I wouldn't mind having the World Wide Web know how much I weigh, I just don't want my husband to find out. Ha.
Okay, take a deep breath, let it out slowly and then make up your mind to working out on a regular basis, eating right and focusing all of your attention on what you're doing when you exercise. Why not try writing about what's bothering you in some sort of journal? Sounds like you need a vent and don't have one...everyone needs to vent. We weren't designed to keep hurt and anger inside of us, it has to come out one way or another. The trick is to find a healthy way to do it.
ReplyDeleteYou also have friends who care a great deal about you...don't be afraid to reach out when you need one...
I wouldn't necessarily worry about having a splurge day. I know it seems like cheating or being bad, but I do it every once in a while because sometimes we just need it. It's worse if you keep doing it a lot and you can't seem to control any of the little impulses that we usually get. But for me I see it as natural sometimes and it just means that ill have to work out a little longer to work it off. Actually what's weird is sometimes if I'm having a hard time getting motivated to run or something and I just feel like eating, ill eat sort of cruddy because I know ill want to run right after to work it off. I don't know if that's right or not, but it seems to work for me at times. Its good that you're making progress though. I'm proud of you!
ReplyDeleteEveryone goes through these sorts of days. You need to find a way to vent as Nick said, whether that be punching bag if your gym has one or even just finding a secluding place and cursing your lungs out, both work. Also, as Nick said, just talking to someone and getting all this off your chest can help a great deal.
ReplyDeleteWe all have those types of days. When you go to the gym take your stress out on the machines and pretend they are the ex-wife. That way you get to exercise while beating the "Shit" out of her at the same time without causing any damage to anyone except maybe working out some anger issues and losing some calories along the way. Then you take a nice hot shower afterward and wash her along with all the stress right down the drain. You can do it!!!
ReplyDeleteI agree with what the other readers have said. It's okay to have a cheat day otherwise you basically set yourself up for failure, just don't over do it. And use the gym as an opportunity to relax and use it as "me time" to step back from the craziness in life. Keep up with the progress!
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