So I was feeling a bit lighter at the top of the year. I went back to work and someone noticed I lost weight. Perhaps a little was my my reply. Soon after I started binge eating. I eat when I am not hungry, I go from one thing to the next-- salty, sweet, salty sweet. I can't get enough.
Why?
Now I am heavier. I feel the fat weighing me down, hindering my movement. I just want to stay in bed.
Why?
Why do I do this to myself? Is it because somebody said something about my body. This has happened before. But it I don't consciously think about the remark and then my body image and eating. I just start eating. Now I feel that I am back up to my top weight--around 240.
I am afraid to weight myself.
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