I have to get this blog thing going. As always I procrastinate…well I like to think of it as searching for inspiration, motivation. I am searching for it for weight loss as well as in my writing. I often find it at all the wrong times (like when I have to go to work and can’t do what I want to do or like at 2am when I have to get up at like 7am the next morning), when I find it at all. FML
I love that picture of Marilyn Monroe exercise. It kind of inspires me. So cute! Image of Marilyn Monroe taken from www.trueartworks.com
What do I envision for this blog?
Well I want to lose weight – a lot of it. I am tired of being fat. I am fat too – no getting around that. Haha, I could make some rude jokes here but I won’t. No, no, I am not just one of those skinny ass women who say in a high pitch voice and giggle after, “I am sooo fat!” Ugh. I hate that. I only wish I could be as ‘fat’ as them.
So I want to lose weight. I think keeping a blog about weight issues and my struggle to work out and eat healthier might keep my mind on this goal and keep me on track. That is my hope anyway. I actually thought about doing this a few months back but I could never get up enough motivation to actually do anything. Sad. I am a little scared about doing this now because it is hard for me to find the time and energy to work out while in school but I am also scared of not doing it. I am hitting middle age and fear that if I don’t do it now I will be fat forever. Not good for me - my body aches, I move too damn slow, and I find myself out of breath walking up just one flight of stairs. I need to get in shape in order to feel better. I am fairly healthy according to my Nurse Practitioner (blood sugar good, cholesterol good - yay me!) but I feel like a fat old grandma.
In addition to feeling better, being healthier, of course I want to look better. I feel like such a big frump most of the time. Times when I feel halfway pretty and feminine I get the feeling I am deluding myself. I am not a person who looks good with extra weight. Some people do look good fat – I just don’t happen to be one of them. I don’t even like to be photographed because when I look at the pictures later, I just say “eewwww!” That is not a good thing to do to oneself and it makes me feel pretty bad. I especially want to lose weight for graduation, which, if all goes right should be May 2011.
This is me on my wedding day in 2007. I wanted to be thin (or thinner) for that big day but of course I procrastinated and let that dream go.
Me graduating with my 2 year degree in 2008. A big milestone for me and this is the only picture I will show people of it. I want to take lot of beautiful pictures the next time I graduate.
Goals
I suppose I should set some goals. Ideal weight loss is about a pound a week. I guess that would be about 16 pounds over the course of this semester. Sure, I’ll take that but I know I will get discouraged if I don’t lose more than that. I hope I can lose more, perhaps I could set my goal at 20 pounds by the end of the semester – pretty modest in my eyes. I can re-evaluate as I go along. To do this I would like to try to get in some exercise everyday. I have a wii system and multiple exercise ‘games’ to work with as well as an exercise bike, many, many exercise tapes, and of course books. Plus I have a membership to Fitness USA as well as my membership to the schoolRec Center
I suppose I should set some goals. Ideal weight loss is about a pound a week. I guess that would be about 16 pounds over the course of this semester. Sure, I’ll take that but I know I will get discouraged if I don’t lose more than that. I hope I can lose more, perhaps I could set my goal at 20 pounds by the end of the semester – pretty modest in my eyes. I can re-evaluate as I go along. To do this I would like to try to get in some exercise everyday. I have a wii system and multiple exercise ‘games’ to work with as well as an exercise bike, many, many exercise tapes, and of course books. Plus I have a membership to Fitness USA as well as my membership to the school
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ReplyDeleteI didn't mean to delete my earlier post, haha. This technology thing isn't easy for me. That is a great picture of Marilyn, and I think your wedding dress is pretty.
ReplyDeleteI know how frustrating and difficult losing weight can be.Thirteen years ago when I turned 40 I weighed 170 pounds. I now weigh 205. I am as active as I've ever been, which includes a regular exercise program, but I still can't lose weight. Our metabolism slows down as we age, which means we don't need as much food. This is where my problem lies.
ReplyDeleteMy latest attempt at weight loss,was to make a rule: no eating after 7:30 PM. I feel less bloated but I'm not sure if I'm losing any weight.
Good luck in your pursuit getting leaner. I look forward to following your blog.
I can relate to the weight loss nightmare. I've struggled with my weight since I was a kid. I had to lose weight to join the Army, then eventually gained it back and had to lose it again in 1997. I kept it off that time until about 5 years ago when my wife and I quit smoking. We both balooned sideways afterward...then 3 years ago I gained even more when I was diagnosed with thyroid and throat cancer. I've lost some of it since then but not all of it. The main thing I've learned over the years is to forget about diets. Throw that word out and leave it on the street. You have to change your eating habits for good. That and exercise. I walk on our treadmill at least 3 times per week for 30 minutes each time. Try doing these things and see what happens.It's true that as we get older our metabolism slows down, that makes it harder but not impossible.You're worth the effort. You're special because you are you...
ReplyDeleteI am glad that you are taking up exercise my friend, I wish you the best of luck. Just make sure that you do NOT overdo it on losing weight, for the consequences can easily become catastrophic if you do so! I hope that you find success in this endeavor, have a good one!
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